Something doesn't seem right...something doesn't feel right...I don't know what it quite is...there is something missing...a feeling that I'm feening...or is it something...but what is it...Aren't I suppose to feel fulfilled...but why am I not...why do I have this sudden urge...

A new year...a new day...I wonder what is over that mountain top...Can you believe it I am almost twenty...gosh...I feel old already...and next year...it will be twenty-one...but on to more important things... I'm finally going back to school...finally getting my life on track...I come to find...that those questions unanswered seem to have answered themselves through time...there is no use in sitting there pondering upon the unknown...because with time you will come to realize that...that time you've wasted pondering...you could of used doing other things...but don't regret...because everyone has their time...when your time comes...you will just move on...you will just start living again...For those who are seeking love...lust...or companionship of some kind...things happen when you least expect it...don't seek too hard...because it might just be the person in front of you...the person you see as someone no more than a friend...or co-worker...it's those people who you think you'll never get with...that you end up loving...allow yourself to take a risk...because if you don't you might go on wondering...Love takes time and patience...and when you find it...everything will fall in place...I'm not saying I don't have anymore unanswered questions...but that's life...full of unanswered questions...I'm just letting them answer themselves...with precious time...I wish you all a wonderful new year...full of happy suprises...

It's been awhile since I've been here...and so much has happened since then...but what am I to do...but to keep on going...pick up the pieces and make my way towards that white light...whatever it may be...

Questions swarming like bees...answers...where are they to be found...I find that I am met by an obstacle bigger than the next... each day I wake...like the problem I had yesterday...just grew bigger...and never seems to decease...I wish someone would just understand...or maybe I can just chop part of my brain...that's a thought...but what can I do...nothing really...

Someone once said...deal with the path you are dealt with...but what if you don't want to...or you're just tired of dealing...I once felt as if people came to me for direction...but who do I run to when I myself have no direction...the person I once was...I am no longer...how does one deal with that...I like many may just be another lost soul in this world...filled with questions that have no answers....answers that have no meaning...and meaning that have no cause...what a life this is...what a world...how do people cope....how do they keep themselves from going insane...I myself am still trying to figure that out...